Friday, September 12, 2008
Dear friends, Today, I open up in a way I never have before on this blog. Today, a little brutal honesty: Truth is... I am struggling with a "thorn in my flesh" that has plagued me for a long time now. I don't want to go into details, but this is something I just haven't been able to overcome. And I'm tired of it. It's beating me up, affecting my home life, my job and my friendships (or lack thereof). Truth is... I am human...a soul wrapped up in a weak, fragile mass of bone, muscle, fat, nerves and tissues. But sometimes that weak shell is more powerful than me. And lately, it's winning this internal battle that I deal with. The spirit is willing...truly willing and aching to be whole. Truth is... I need transformation. I need healing. I need to muster up strength of will like I have never been able to before. I need to stop putting it off as "just something I'll always have to deal with." I need to overcome. Truth is... It's embarrassing to even have to ask for help. But I'm there. I'm broken to that point. I need your prayers.